Well dear readers

I had a little bit of a "corfuffle" yesterday - I on the spur of the moment decision decided to do a HPT (Home pregnancy Test) when I felt some cramping.

Now of course there was no home test left in my house - they were all in my partner's house. Typical! I then happened upon an OPK (Ovulation Predictor Kit) in my drawer and I knew that it measures the amount of Hcg in your system (which is only in your system if you're pregnant). So I thought why not? It'll be fun!

So anyhow, I'm sitting there on the loo (TMI!) and not expecting anything to happen. One line appears and nothing. But then gradually a second line begins to appear. Soon it was equally as dark as the first one. I kind of got a bit breathless and rang my partner - who didn't seem too excited - as it's not an official test. Then I started to google OPK's and positive results and it appeared I "could be."

So I'm officially "could be" at the moment.

I have to say, the past few days I've been feeling strange twinges. They were particularly painful last night. They really took my breath away.

So now, it's official. I'm late. Me, who is regular like the 77 bus- always on time, never late.

I'm 15dpo and no sign of anything or spotting and the cramping has disappeared today.
I wish the cramping would come back - as I found it kind of comforting.

One thing I will say is that my headaches have been thumping the past two weeks - so much so that I complained in work that my VDU was really affecting me. So could I be pregnant? Am I going to do a HPT? The answer is "No", I won't do one. I've decided to wait until Friday and if my AF has not come I'll go to my GP (General Practitioner doctor) and get a blood test. I'll have to do that anyway so I may as well just go straight and get that over with.

So am I excited? No, I'm threading a very fine line here - I don't want to be really upset when my AF arrives. Funnily enough, a close friend of mine called me. I hadn't heard from her in a while as she lives about 200 miles away. She rang to see if I had any news. And -at present, no news is good news. So I'm just biding my time - hoping AF doesn't come. Every waking hour is of - "could I be"? Yet, somehow at the same time, I'm out of body, I'm also very cool calm and collected. What is meant to be will be.

xx cherrygo