Today is Wednesday, am I've taken the day off work to attend my partner's uncle's funeral. It's nice to have a day off mid week - breaks up the week. College started up last night and I miss not being with my class mates. But this is a small sacrifice as the stress is just too much and I need to keep zen in my TTC journey. Myself and all my classmates are all going out on Saturday for lunch. I really wish that the first IVF had worked as I would've gone back to college and be graduating in Feb 2010. Now, god knows when I'll finish this masters. All i've left is just one semester and my thesis. I'm going to try and do some reading while I'm off an get some of my thesis done on this break.
Well I tried to do my OPK last night and the stick had obviously lost its goodness as no line appeared even on the control area. Mind you I felt the twinges of ovulation on my right hand side. So my dh and I made sure we baby danced last night and this morning. It's fun just doing it without thinking of drugs etc., I wish we could just do this for a few years and take our time enjoying each other. But them's the breaks of being an older gal! I really like the attitude of the Secret to aging. They basically say, when it's your 50th birthday, don't put 50 candles on the cake - put just one candle. As our body renews itself every 3 months - so you're really just as old as you feel. I'm convinced this positive mental attitude will fend off body diseases. The Secret talks about society seeing getting old as getting more aged, in other words - we feel we are old because we are told we are OLD. The same with doctors talking about aging eggs - they say your eggs are old now - or you are too old to have a baby - you need Donor eggs. The more they say this to you - the more you think it's right. Half the battle is the positive mind - the positive faith. That can cure anything! I also wish that when I go to the fertility clinic - they put together a diet and a supplement for you - a holistic look at fertility - rather than a drug methodology.
The more I think about it - the more I want to put together a group here in Dublin - of girls trying to conceive so that we can help each other out. Sandy Robertson's book spoke about how the group for over 40's all helped each other become pregnant - and as one became pregnant -it would spur the others on and encourage them.
Well, the sun has just come out and I have to get ready for this funeral. I'm glad Jimmy got a nice day to say goodbye.
Goodbye Jimmy and rest in peace and have some fun there!
Cherrygo...xx
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